summer '09 staples

cigarettes

I remember when I quit smoking. It was the 7th of May. It was about 10 p.m. I had just finished watching Grey's Anatomy's second last episode for this season and I was a little bit nerve wracked. I went to reach for a cigarette, because I needed to calm down or unwind or something, but I had this slight moment where I thought, what if I just try to calm down naturally? Crazy. Well it worked for that night, and the next few weeks to come. But come the beginning of June, I started to hyperventilate every day, my hands devoid of any time-wasting activity I might need on lunch breaks, etc. So I said fuck it, and that night when my mom called me asking if I wanted anything from the dep I said, YES. A pack of 20 Viceroy regulars. And there you have it, it was that easy to un-do all of the effort I had made (well, ok, it was only a month or so but still).

What goes better with a vanilla-almond coffee? What goes better with late night movies? What goes better with flipping through fashion magazines in your underwear until the wee hours of the morning? I think I'm insane. I need a cigarette.

I want this so badly.

LC

"There are cracks in everything
That's how the light gets in"
xx

bloody monday

I just got home from writing an english exam. I ended up writing just 75 words short of the required 600. But I figured, fuck it, I'm half asleep with stupid shit on my mind and I'm not in the mood. Right now I could go for a joint and a LONG nap. No more exams for the rest of this week, but then they start right back up next week. I just want summer to start. I want to not give a shit about anything (well, more than I already don't give a shit hahahh) ......

I wish I was in Australia right now. Somewhere fucking beautiful where no one (or at least I) would not have worries.

my good deed for today

I bought this shirt today from H&M. The lovely and amazing Cyndi Lauper designed it and I just fucking love it. And 25% of the proceeds of each item sold are donated to youth HIV/AIDS awareness projects, so that doesn't hurt either.

my summer must haves

*basically the only things I use in summer:

mattifying cream: because I don't like to wear foundation. I sweat it off and it ends up feeling disgusting. This keeps your face matte and pretty dry.

eyebrow pencils: a good defined eyebrow means that you need less over- all make up. Which always sounds good to me because as I mentioned earlier, I hate wearing make up in summer.

digital camera: to capture all of the unforgettable moments.

sandals: I love these. I just got them at Payless. They're really comfortable and go with everything.

wayfarer sunglasses: I never liked this style because it looks odd on me, but I found an oversized pair on e-Bay for $3 and I can't stop wearing them.