PRA

I am currently writing to you from my iPod touch because I'm in the middle of watching Project Runway Australia and I had to take 5 seconds to say I'm obsessed. I know I'm late by like a year or something, but whatever. I love it! I love being able to see international talent even though I don't live in that country and were it not for the internet I wouldn't even know about the international versions of a show I already love. Ps: how cute is that Petrova Hammond? :)

sooner than later

in the corner of a crowded noisy hall
there's a picture of a girl on the wall
and she's looking at the tower in the city of love
that reaches up to the sky and way farther above
she has a look of wonder in her eyes
and I can't help but recognize it

as much as I feared you were gone
turns out you were here all along
in everything I've looked at
in every memory half-fizzled

you are the luckiest...
you've been to Paris when it sizzles

general boredom

my sister left for europe today and i'm really sad/lonely.. and my phone's cut off so it sucks a lot more than it already would have. seriously, i'm not gonna pay 50 cents on a payphone everytime i need to talk to someone. and keyword is need, because there are obviously time limits on payphones... so what about the nights where i don't necessarily NEED to talk to someone but i just fucking WANT to? then what. fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.

career/what lies ahead

I really want to study fashion design and every day that goes by it becomes more apparent and somehow more annoying.. there's a voice in the back of my mind that talks about it all day long and then there's another voice that bitches at me all day long for not getting up and taking the proper steps to go about it. I have a couple schools in mind that I'd like to apply to, and a handful of courses I'd like to take beforehand, like a simple sewing course or something to prepare me. Mind you, not being able to sew at all surely won't help me! I've found a couple make-up artist courses and even a school also that I'd like to check out.

The main thing that I think is stopping me is the thought (or maybe belief?) that just liking or loving something is not enough to mean that you are capable of/should be doing that as a living. The question really is, how do you know what's meant for you? I don't believe that anyone does. And I do believe in taking chances, and that if they don't work out, try something else. But sadly, I have to be realistic and I know that I don't have the kinds of funds that can support any mistakes in career choice. SOO, I'll probably be spending a lot of time thinking/blogging about this.