The Monkeyfaced Jew

It feels like ages since I've blogged.. and in reality it's been like, what, a week. I've just been pretty much working and living. Boringly so. I've been reading Sarah Silverman's book "The Bedwetter" and even though I'm an actual fan of Silverman's, I find it brilliant for a first writing effort. I think it would make anyone piss themselves of laughter. While some, or most, people think Sarah Silverman is nothing but a vile, vulgar, disgusting person, I think she's a breath of fresh air. I don't think that anything she has ever said has been particularly shocking, it's only shocking to those who live in a bubble. A bubble that floats on top of reality and looks down on it as though it's a dream. All she ever jokes about is every day life things, all truth. So how can people go around saying she's vile? Life itself is vile then. But it didn't take a genius to figure out that disgusting things do exist in this life. While writing a skit for her latest season of the Sarah Silverman Program (which recently has been cancelled) she had a fight with the Standards & Practices people, because they would not allow her to say "labia" on television. She responded with something like, "we said balls 18 times in our last episode, and you're not gonna let me say labia?" It's funny because apparently labia is gross-er than balls, but really? Balls are disgusting beings unto themselves. You can call someone a dick more times than you can remember in one day, and it will make people laugh, but the minute you call someone a vagina it's like "ew.. why did you go there?" And it's funny because even when the person in question is a woman, referring to body parts that she herself has, it's considered gross. Sarah Silverman is only considered "shocking" because she has a vagina. And that to me is pretty shocking... it's not like it's 1950, you don't have to cup your hand over your mouth in disbelief that a young woman is "misbehaving".

Trannies and Marilyn

I'm watching Some Like It Hot (for the first time ever) and I'm actually blown away by how groundbreaking it is.. for it's time, of course. I mean, trannies, gay references, alcoholism... in the 1950's. It brings to mind 2 movies I love: Transamerica and Connie & Carla. The latter, I've heard, was based on Some Like It Hot. And I've never realized I'm actually a fan of Marilyn Monroe's. And I don't mean in the "she's a hot icon" way. Some of my favorite movies are some of the pictures she's starred in but I never really payed attention to her as an actress... more for her personal life. But there's something about her that translates so well to the screen, specifically in roles where she is kinda of sad and troubled. Eerily enough, if I look very closely, I feel like I can see that she's not acting. She's genuine.

I awoke

Only to find my lungs empty

And through the night

So it seems I'm not breathing

And now my dreams are nothing like they were meant to be

And I'm breaking down, I think I'm breaking down

And I'm afraid

To sleep because of what haunts me

Such as living with the uncertainty

That I'll never find the words to say

Which would completely explain

Just how I'm breaking down

Someone come and

someone come and save my life

Maybe I'll sleep when I am dead

But now it's like the night is taking sides

With all the worries that occupy the back of my mind

Could it be this misery will suffice?

I've become

A simple souvenir of someone's kill

And like the sea

I'm constantly changing from calm to ill

Madness fills my heart and soul as if the great divide could swallow me whole

oh, how I'm breaking down

Someone come and

someone come and save my life

Maybe I'll sleep when I am dead

But now it's like the night is taking sides

With all the worries that occupy the back of my mind

Could it be this misery will suffice?

Starbucks

I officially start on Monday! Woo-hoo. Monday's just the rest of the orientation-type stuff, and Wednesday I get to jump right into the coffeemaking part. I'm very excited. I get to be a part of the "However You Want It" Frappuccino Happy Hour event. Actually, now that I think of it, I should be more nervous than anything else hahaha oh boy..

If you're not exactly aware of what I'm talking about, you can go here and read all the info'z

another pictures one

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soo, I'm sitting in my room sipping an iced coffee.. eating a veggie samosa... typing on my BRAND NEW PINK SONY VAIO LAPTOP (you might recall my June 2009 post...) jeez, I couldn't be more excited. I'm acting 5 instead of 20. I'm so in love :) there's so much shit I probably really need to say right now but I'm sorry, I'm too preoccupied.